The Soundtrack of My Life

here i am sitting here thinking why i have so many thoughts running through my mind that i just dont understand why im thinking this way. Tears are running down my face b/c i cant take it anymore & it's really to stressful for me to handle this situation that i'm going through. Everytime i express my feelings to certain ppl, who are really close to me, seems like they dont really care at all but i know one person who really cares & that's the man upstairs {GOD}. i always have faith him becuz he's alwayz there to protect me & just fights all of my battles that im struggling right now. he listens to everything what i'm saying & makes a plan for me to do better with my life. He gives me joy & always put a smile on my face & i am so glad that he's in my life becuz without him i would be nothing...just a young woman who doesn't have a clue of whats ahead in life in the future. i realize that i dont need a relationship that i can do bad all by myself & just focus on me & not anybody else b/c it just a waste of time. i feel like im just a nobody at times but listening to other ppl who really care always say "just to believe in yourself & dont let anyone talk you down b/c they are the ones that dont care about their own life." i just go with the flow most times & just stick to myself & just be me. this is why i dont talk about my feelings to anyone but i always write down in my personal journal & just reread everything that i write about my life. it makes me feel better when i read it to myself becuz it makes me a better & most successful person that i can ever be. i probably dont make any sense typing this crap up but i just have to get something off of my chest so i dont have to keep it all inside of me...that's when my self-esteem gets really low & dont have confidence of myself.